It's in you

It's in you, it's in me.
The will to see, what we truly are.
It is not anger you feel, that burns.
It is not the ego, that feels empty.
Not resentments, disappointments, it's all you.
If you want to be, you can be pure love too.
If only, you try.
If only, I let me try.

Poem to my (actual) soulmate

Darling,

You have been the light, at the end of my long, dark tunnel. I've never felt this bliss of existence, of sweet nothings. It's so easy to let go and move on, and to hope for an even better future (if that is even possible). With you by my side, am alive, free, happy, and I can conquer the world. Thank you for the blessing of a life you've given me. It's like I am born again, with you.

I love you,
Moonma

Dark Chocolate

The illusion of his love was dark,

dark like chocolate.
Mysterious, Longings, Settled-ness,
and of dwindling fate.

The illusion of his love was dark,
dark like chocolate.
A horse, a man, a vision,
and melodious palettes.

The illusion of his love was dark,
dark like chocolate.

Quote

Read somewhere
"Women are made to be loved, not understood"

Tall Trees

Driving through the windy forest road of no return,
I just wanted to get far
Far away from you
Found a lake in the deep of the night,
A recluse of peace, guarded by tall trees,
I made my way to the edge
Sat down hollow, trying to get far
Yet I thought of you

Hear your mind

When I begin letting go,
I can see it all clearly,
The unknown that eludes us,
Is as clear as daylight,
Like water over river rocks,
It flows through us all,
Signalling ever since to everyone,
To feel it like love,
Yet mankind so disconnected,
Afraid to know it all,
Could not see the signs,
Hear what has been told inside,
Know what is already known inside.
Hear your mind.

My Freedom

My freedom will come,
It will come the day I lose
my emotional attachment to myself
I will not be afraid of dying,
I will not be afraid of trying,
I will be free,
Free as the birds
Free as the birds who soar idly up the sky,
Sometimes swaying down, sometimes rising high,
But never falling, ever gliding,
With the wind under it's helm at all times,
Like god's heartbeat in each one of us,
I will be free,
My freedom will come,
It will come the day I lose
My emotional attachment to myself

Miss singing my songs

Sometimes I miss singing my songs,
The songs in my heart that would always be,
That would never die as time may cease to be

Still when I open my heart to sing the song I know,
The melody is gone, The madness is done,
I am now afraid to sing, to speak, to be all undone

In my dream..

As I lay awake in a different realm,
What could it be, this new dream?
I can be flying over your house,
I can be singing to a mouse,
In that beautiful real world,
Where my madness is all sound,
I could be doing anything at all,
I don't care if I lay there, if I fall,
It does not matter..

Crossed Out

Crossed out poems of the blues,
Written thrice but erased with the news,
Don't want to let them out,
Don't want to keep it in the mouth,
Cryptic poems were my true souls,
To the eyes of the world who would cry foul
Inside in my peace, I will be the best me,
For viol and her solicitudes will remain free

Old Star

When those eyes lit up,
And you held my hand in the spell of the night,
I knew that you found me, old star you found me at last

When you smiled like you knew,
I stumbled through fate's winding roads to reach you,
I made it to you, old star I made it to you at last

When the magic of us rose from our hearts,
It filled the whole universe that night,
We found each other, old star we found us

Aback

Taken aback
By that moment
When it's not deja vu
Yet is more than what can be true
When you know in your deepest gut
How beautiful and sincere true love is

If I could have trusted you, I would have known you

If only I could trust you,
If only I could fall, knowing you will catch me,
If only I could close my eyes, knowing you will hold me,
If only I could run and hide, knowing you will find me,
If only I could fight the world, knowing you will protect me,

I would have known you,
I would have known your pain, when you did not tell me,
I would have known your smile, when you fake it,
I would have been your soldier, ready to die for your battle,
I would have been your inner strength, when you forsake it

I am a Pushover

We were walking down the road,
We were all so merry,
The street dogs were barking,
But not a thought did that carry,
When the dogs started running towards us,
Both of you took a decision so fast,
Pushed me towards the fangs,
Used me like a safety shield,
Against their sharp teeth,
Almost gleaming menacingly
against the dark night sky,
Pushed me like a sacrificial lamb,
Towards their sharp barks,
You forgot for a moment that I am a girl like you,
That I love dogs more than humans,
But only when they are cuddly and cute,
That I never sigh nor complain,
But that is just my respect for you,
That you could sadden me with a single action,
And I could never forgive you too..

Poem to my Soulmate

In your eyes, I could see my soul,
In your smile, I find my happiness,
In your touch, I lose myself,
In your embrace, I am at peace,
In your words, I am transfixed,
In your love, I am everything I am meant to be

In you, I find my man, my soulmate

I am not making sense

I am breathing paint,
I am feeling faint,
I am obsessing songs,
I am repeating words,
I am laughing too hard,
I am thinking too much,
I am losing myself,
I am gliding to depths,
I am smiling at nothing,
I am an orange pudding,
I am not making sense,
I am stalling a fence

Buried another myself instead

I should have,
I should have locked myself in,
Cried my heart out,
I went out dancing instead

I should have,
I should have written some sad songs,
Poured my heart out,
I went to eat ice-cream instead

I should have,
I should have cried on a shoulder,
Ripped my heart out,
I became a counsellor instead

I should have,
I should have got sad drunk,
Thrown tantrums with my heart out,
I smiled at love instead

I should have,
I should have slept days and nights,
Spent hours inside,
I lost myself instead

And with all that got hidden,
With all that got over-ridden,
I buried another myself instead,
Today, I buried another myself instead.

He warms my Heart

You warm my heart,
You light my smile,
I think of you,
You are my morning glory,
My bedside story..

I looked for you Duliajan

Warm orange light at night,
Dancing in the moonlight, the starlight,
Shadows and Turns, Trees and Stones,
I have counted 83 and each leaf I had known,
And those dreams I whispered to you,
My Duliajan, you know that I have always loved you.
Do you remember the tears you soaked,
The hushed memories of dawn,
The flowers that you bloomed bright,
All those times you held me tight,
I thought we were forever.
A haven, we were comrades together.
But you made me a nomad, I had to go,
My stories went dry, I missed you so,
Travelled far and high, No solace I could find,
Matter did not exist, no heart and too much mind,
Tired I looked for you, my sanctuary,
I looked for you..

the Sapphire Soil

Do i walk on it
or do i stare
at its beauty at its peril
at its mystic like a devil

the sapphire soil of eternity
beckons to me and says
'Isn't this route well known,
am i not your only hope?'

a mockery yet true
the sapphire soil of mayhem
'there is no escape from you',
i say and tread the path to hell

p.s - wrote this one and a half years back... found it today :)