Goodbyes

on a purple night,
in the silent breeze,
i chanced upon the sky,
and i was transfixed !!
'cause the stars did twinkle
but they also winked,
and they whispered ever so softly,
they had me jinxed..
in the silence that followed,
i heard an unknown melody,
a song of space,
enrobed in stunning rhapsody,
it filled my heart,
and a joy it warmed,
an oblivion oath,
bound me tight and sound,
and suddenly,
and suddenly they glimmered,
and faded to black,
the silent still of the night,
held all the things i lacked
as i closed my eyes,
a teardrop escaped,
with a shudder i ran,
to never look back again.

about my dad

I look up to him,
with the love of blood
and bond
with the patience of years
and hope
with the warmth that only
fondness can bring
with the smile that only
understanding breeds

Yet i long to be free
of his guidance upon me
and wish to see
how wide the world really is..
how to walk on a path unknown
and face a crisis untold
how to discover things on my own
and let the wind of life
blow me away towards my calling
as it unfolds..

A Kite

I let myself be flown like a kite,
every wind, every word,
directed me to my ultimate fate..
they stung, some soothed,
but they made me fly anyways,
but all for my final fall,
it was not a waste nonetheless..

My painting

Created by me at Bored.com on 31st dec, 2007

that home of my dreams

i fly away,
to the world beyond
where the rain is chocolate
and the clothes louis vuitton

where the curtains are floral
and lacy with frills
and the walls are painted
in colors i dream

the windows are large
and sunshine is plenty
and the balcony brings
the breeze from the sea

the fridge is stocked
with litchies and juice
and sundaes and frappes
from CCD is you please

my bed is round with
silk pillows and sheets
and net curtains of pink
adorn it free

red roses, white lilies,
pink gerberas and daisies
look pretty in
glass vases of feel

heartbroke

oh no!
here goes my heart again,
here breaks my heart again..
yesterday i had mend it
but here breaks my heart again!

now its gonna leak some blood,
and some of my soul too..
i gotta make it rock hard
and fill in the cracks too!

hospital hues

wel, dont get me wrong from the title .. i mean there is nothing very exciting bout the duliajan oil hospital... but ya its like a mini trip for me where i can get sympathetic stares from healthy people and consoling stares from diseased ones... i think the regular staff and nurses (including) are always wondering why the hell do i come here each and every vacs... not my fault.. entirely my dad's fault dis.. no matter how much our doctor has convinced him that am perfectly normal, not malnutrition-ed, not anaemic... he wont listen..
so the cause of today's visit was my swollen eyes and my lethargy... the actual cause was depression as i know it but can i tell dis to my parents.. no way!! i will be attacked with questions i cannot answer nor do i want to.. so i just denied the fact and attributed it to possible anaemia.. or maybe allergy in eyes and gastric prob for lethargy... but excuses proved lame and got my dad worried enough to take me in my bata hawai chappals..
once inside sabir uncle's chamber.. he looked at me then at my dad and exclaimed 'again!' .. and then 'what is the prob now?' .. to which i explained how very lethargic i am (knowing very well that its incurable in my case) .. he took my blood pressure .. and my hand was squeezed to an extent that i had to tell him to not fracture my bones or something.. after the reading sabir uncle smiled .. his face clearly told that 'something is wrong' .. and well i had low blood pressure.. the lower scale said 94.. he checked my eyes.. pulled the lower lid down.. and i had low hemoglobin too.... thankfully am leaving home tomorrow so no blood test to confirm this... oh how i hate needles..!
now the interesting part.. 'the medicines'.. out of the long list of medicines i was prescribed spanning two long sheets, i found one particular medicine quite intriguing.. doctor said you ain't getting this medicine in dis hospital get it 4m outside ''highly recommended by me''.. my dad naturally inquired y dis particular medicine is unavailable.. to which uncle sabir said in hush tones 'its alcoholic content is a bit high'...... but its sure to boost up my energy and my mood... he told me to drink 2 tablespoons of it in d day too... in college... so i was being prescribed alcohol legally... 'its just like wine!' - dr. sabir
now my dad 'a naturally worried person' with looks to match was quite worried whether am gonna have this medicine at all.... and me say no to alcohol... no way! but i was actually thinking of not boozing anymore to ensure good health...and well well... life's ironies..