Buried another myself instead

I should have,
I should have locked myself in,
Cried my heart out,
I went out dancing instead

I should have,
I should have written some sad songs,
Poured my heart out,
I went to eat ice-cream instead

I should have,
I should have cried on a shoulder,
Ripped my heart out,
I became a counsellor instead

I should have,
I should have got sad drunk,
Thrown tantrums with my heart out,
I smiled at love instead

I should have,
I should have slept days and nights,
Spent hours inside,
I lost myself instead

And with all that got hidden,
With all that got over-ridden,
I buried another myself instead,
Today, I buried another myself instead.